Coming Full Circle

I have not written for a full year on my blog ... for a very good reason. I went on an adventure and got a little sidetracked, really sidetracked until I found my way back. 2009 was a strange year in a lot of ways. I was inspired with a new business idea that once executed, was not what I wanted. I spent a lot of money on coaching, and the ideas and forward movement was all solid and useful in many ways. However, I began to recognize that I was not listening deeply enough inside to hear my own voice as I was learning from others. And in the end I came back to where I started from... but a new person.

It all sort of started coming clear in 2009 over the summer when I found myself quite ill with adrenal exhaustion. The cortisol levels in my adrenal glands were practically nonexistent. Bad news. The bottom line is that I had depleted my levels over the years from stress, lack of sleep, overworking, not relaxing sufficiently, etc.

On a non-physical level I was also realizing that I was not happy with the business I had created. It was not fun anymore and I honestly realized I didn't like the vast majority of the work I was doing. So I had to surrender. I called my clients and began the process of wrapping up my projects with them. I ended up moving into a couple month Quiet Period, where I stopped doing so much and began listening more. I asked myself in meditation: what do I really want? What is my heart telling me? Why am I at this crossroad? How do I create a happier life? (I also had a lot of sleep and rest to catch up on).

Since I couldn't physically do as much, I was able to hear clearly and began crafting more healthy habits of sleep, rest and balanced work. When I finally felt I had clarity I was astounded to see that I had come full circle to the work that I started doing a few years ago -- Helping others transform their lives as they face loss and change. So I'm back to working on a limited basis with individuals who are grieving or moving through big life changes and preparing to finally get out to the world my HealingMemorials.com business. I'm so much happier and grateful that my body stopped me in my tracks and got me back to where my joy is.

And although it was a hard realization at first... to feel like I took a year's detour... I realize that I am a much wiser, self-empowered person and far more ready to take the next step on my journey. Life has an interesting way of leading us along the way. Embracing the change by surrendering, rather than staying steeped in something that wasn't working that well was a huge gift.